Honobread's Account of Involuntary Admission to a Psychiatric Ward

Summary:

Honobread shares her experience of being involuntarily admitted to a psychiatric ward in 2020 due to severe mental health issues [00:02:35].
She reflects on her previous video about the psych ward and aims to address negative stereotypes associated with mental illness [00:04:04].
She recounts a disturbing incident in the ward and the daily routine [00:04:46] [00:05:06].
She describes the limited access to activities and the impact it had on her mental state [00:05:34].
She discusses forming connections with other patients through art and card games [00:07:21] [00:09:04].
She emphasizes the importance of self-care, prioritizing personal happiness, and seeking help when needed [00:09:57].

Mental Health Awareness Month [ 00:00:35 ]
The bleak environment of the psychiatric ward exacerbated her depression [00:05:22].

Honobread staring at the ceiling of her room in the psychiatric ward [ 00:05:19 ]

Initial Breakdown and ER Assessment [00:02:35]

Honobread recounts a period in 2020 when her mental health was at its worst, leading to a breakdown.
She was taken to the ER by her family, where she underwent an assessment.
Due to her panic attack and inability to answer questions coherently, she was involuntarily admitted to a psychiatric ward.
One assessment question involved identifying the similarity between an elephant and a bicycle, to which her answer was deemed incorrect.

An ER nurse asks Honobread what the similarity is between an elephant and a bicycle [ 00:03:12 ]

Honobread spent three days in the ER waiting for a bed to become available at a psych ward.
During this time, she had no phone, privacy, or access to hygiene care.
Her first psych ward video focused on her roommate, Jenny, who made her uncomfortable.

Honobread reflects on her previous video and acknowledges that she could have done a better job addressing negative stereotypes associated with mental illness.
She emphasizes that mental illnesses should be treated with respect, understanding, and compassion.

Mental illnesses should be treated with respect, understanding, and compassion [ 00:04:13 ]

Honobread describes a disturbing incident in the psych ward where she woke up to find a man in her room.
The daily routine in the psych ward involved waking up early for vitals, breakfast, and then hours of inactivity.
She spent her time staring at the ceiling, contemplating her existence, and crying.

Honobread staring at the ceiling of her room in the psychiatric ward [ 00:05:19 ]

The psych ward had limited access to activities and entertainment, such as TV, books, or crayons.
Patients were not allowed to go outside freely and had to request access to a small, enclosed balcony with limited ventilation.
The lack of stimulation and access to the outside worsened her mental state.

After begging a nurse, she got one piece of paper for origami.
Honobread describes her first interaction with an orange-haired guy with anger issues and how she was initially scared of him.
She sat next to him during painting time, and he became excited over her manic painting.

Honobread painting with another patient [ 00:07:25 ]
She formed connections with other patients through art and card games.
She started playing cards with a group of people she didn't know, and they became competitive and rowdy.
She realized that she could still experience happiness and laughter, even in the midst of her despair.

Honobread playing cards with other patients [ 00:09:08 ]

Honobread emphasizes that healing is not linear or perfect and that moments of happiness can feel fleeting.
She commits to finding more ways to heal, live happily, and be kinder and more patient with herself.
She realizes that the things she loves to do still make her happy for a reason.
Honobread is reminded that there are people who love and care about her when she makes the effort to surround herself with good people.
She decides to prioritize herself, do what makes her happy, and seek the help she needs.
"You deserve to be happy."